Wow it’s been almost 4 months since the last time I posted a blog. A lot has happened in that span of time that would take me a while to write up, so I’m going to put it short and sweetly here.

Well for starters I’m typing this out on my new iPad, that I’m totally in love with, with the word press app I just downloaded. Super easy to use and I have a lot of ideas to utilize this little invention. For one thing, I finally bought one of the many cameras I’ve been dying to have, that being the Nikon D90. So I’m really getting into the photography world and actually have a few
Photo shoots lined up, including a wedding! I think with the iPad it would very useful and sleek looking to show potential clients my work through here quickly, rather then your everyday laptop. I have the same idea for my web design clients too.

In life related news I was hired as a graphic designer for a nursing clothing line called Motherwear. I really love it and it’s a refreshing change from all of my past web design related jobs. There I create their seasonal catalog, edit their garment images for both print and web, help with marketing, and in a few weeks, will be assisting with the photo shoot for the summer line. It’s a very fun job indeed!

Well, I would write more but I’m being beckoned, so this is what I will leave you with until next time. Have a Happy Easter everyone!

…while other times I love it. Makes sense right?

For the past month, my life has just been one huge roller coaster, and right now, I’m not sure it’ll end just yet (the drama not my life, yeesh!). Earlier this month, I got into a car accident. My car of 2 years, which would have been paid off the beginning of the next year, was announced a total loss by my auto insurance provider. This is where my drama started.

I officially broke up with my boyfriend right after. After one whole year of the good and the bad, it became nasty and ended all in one terrible day. I was completely heart broken. Add this to the stress of not having a car and going back and fourth with lawyers, car insurance, and tricky lien holders, it was just spelling out disaster.

For about a week, I went into my own little depression, wondering what the hell I did wrong to be in the position I was in. Second guessing myself and thinking that what people might have said were true and I was merely just blind to it all. I thought of the most ugliest things in that time and I felt bad afterward seeing my mother and friends feeling bad for me as well.

If its one thing in life I absolutely hate, its that of people feeling bad for me or being a part of my problems. I know sometimes its not so healthy to keep things bottled up or the burden put completely on your shoulders, but with what I’ve gone through in life and my experiences, I can’t help it. I just don’t want people to throw things back in my face later on or expect me to BE THERE for them, because they were there for me. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll always try to help others out as much as I can (contradicting, huh?), but for someone to nastily think that I OWE them because they did a small favor for me…even when I didn’t ask for it, or told them not to, they still expect it and not in a nice way either, is what I hate the most! Sadly, this has happened to me on one too many occasions.

In the end though, I have to thank my family and friends for their encouraging words. If not for them, I would probably still be thinking so poorly of myself and for no good reason. I know who I am, I mean, I would sure hope so after 21 years of living. Only I know who I truly am and what I believe. Others cannot tell me what THEY think I am just because it is what THEY believe. Only I can define myself.

After much thought and getting back on my feet, I noticed things to turn around for the good. Like they say, when one door closes, another opens, and I believe this to be very true. I’ve made a lot of stupid decisions in my life, have let certain things pass me by, while I was blinded by just wasn’t right, but not anymore. I’m proud to be who I am and although life loves to give me lemons, all I can do is well…make lemonade!

I just hope that with all that has happened and with what I know now and the freedoms I have, that I will make the right decisions from here on out and live my life the way I want and to the fullest! In the end, that’s what life’s all about, right?

My desktop computer has been rendered useless thanks to almost 80 viruses found on my computer just this past weekend! I tried to fight it by downloading a anti-virus program and get my firewall up (it was turned off for some reason), but nothing helped in the long run. 180 infections were “healed” but 11 viruses remained and those were the big time ones eating at my hard drive and system files.

I’ve tried restoring files and also setting my system to a month before, but nothing works. I can’t use anything in the control panel as it keeps saying a certain file is corrupted or cannot be located. (thanks to the virus)

I’m not sure how this happened, but I have an idea of why it happened and who made it happen, but I shall not point fingers or say names…*cough*my mother*cough*.

It takes about 5 restarts to actually show anything on the desktop and I have about 10 minutes to do anything before it shut downs by itself. It’s extremely annoying since I’m trying to move important files I have to my external hard drive and don’t have enough time to do it.

I’m currently using my MAC iBook, which is useful (it has Abode CS2 installed) but it’s very slow…I need to find some better hardware for it. >_<

I’m going to try and see if anything can be done to save my desktop, but for now I’m fresh out of ideas and money to do anything worth it! It sucks really bad and I hope I can fix it soon, this MAC is a little bothersome and I don’t know how longer I can go without my beloved desktop!